Always in my heart.

Remembering your Wedding Anniversary

November 18th 2000

I come up through the layers of sleep

Each day

And I remember.

I waken to the sounds outside

I see the day unfold

A day you cannot see.

My heart has that familiar lurch of pain....

There have been so many days without you now

But it is only like yesterday that you were gone

In a flash

In an instant

Broken beyond repair...........

How can I ever forget?

Never.

The depth of silence in my life where you existed is profound

I can hear your voice at times

But it is no longer real..................

I see your smile

And I long to see you.

And I know

I will never be the same

We are left here

Those of us who love you

Who go on without you......................

As we have to do...........

Marking each anniversary

Each birthday

Each memory

So you remain with us.

The ripples of your life that was

Flow on in others

Each having a different track

A different story

Some are yet to be told...............

I have to face the day

Each day

Afresh

Dry the tears

And push through the pain

But know

You were so loved

And eventually

Slowly

I can smile.